Beep. Beep.
Love is blind.
Beep.
We hear it all the time. All the fucking time.We hear from those crappy puke-inducing chick flicks, the damn romance novels, and don’t get me started on those dumb bimbos who go nuts over fucking twilight or some stupid shit like that. They throw that phrase around like they know shit about love.
Yesterday though, I started to understand what it actually meant. It was the complete opposite of what those ‘love-struck’ douche bags have been telling us. Love, by itself isn’t blind.
Beep-beep-beep-
It’s what happens to it that blinds you.
Beeeeeeeeeep…
“Tyler!” I woke up yelling from my arm chair, only to see my little brother sleeping peacefully on the hospital bed next to me. Well, as peaceful as he could be, anyway.Thank fuck I hadn’t woken him up. A male nurse who was walking past heard me, and gave me a strange look from the doorway, like I was some kind of freak. “What are you looking at, huh?” I cocked my head, pissed off. I didn’t have time for bullshit like that. The male nurse simply rolled his eyes and walked away. Hmm, his ass seemed perfectly shaped for a- FUCK! I shook my head in frustration. He’s a dude. I shouldn’t be thinking about his perfectly shaped ass. Damn it, I shouldn’t have been checking out his ass at all!
I punched the wall right next to me, hoping that the pain on my knuckles would occupy my mind enough to avoid feeling the overwhelming confusion that stirred inside. My focus shifted - along with my eyes - towards Tyler. Seeing those scars, those bandages, the fucking machine and drip bags his body hooked up to, nearly killed me. My right hand gently moved towards his hair and brushed it aside, revealing the scratches on his face. “Don’t you worry, Ty.” I whispered softly, with a lump in my throat. “I’m gonna make sure that they pay for what they did to you.” I promised a-matter-of-factly. “Just like the bus driver did.”
Like I said, it’s the mere loss of love, - or in my case, the threat of one, that blinds us. That was the only way to explain what happened yesterday. When I found out what had happened to my little brother, it was like I was consumed by a shroud of darkness - of shock, of grief, of worry, of fear - all of which combined to become a blindfold of anger, of fury, of hate. That was all I could see. I wanted payback. I wanted retribution. Sure, there was no doubt that we were going to sue the bus driver’s ass, but it wasn’t enough. Not for me, and not for Tyler. He owed us more than jail time, more that fucking money.
He needed to be punished.
And he got what he fucking deserved. My eyes wandered around the hospital room, looking at the flowers, and ‘get well soon’ cards his so-called ‘friends’ sent him instead of actually showing up to visit. I felt my lips form a slight smile when my gaze landed of a photo of Tyler, Amber and myself. When it comes down to it, family is the only thing that matters.
“Family.” I muttered breathlessly as a horrific thought invaded my mind. I didn’t know what I would do if I have lost Tyler. My life would have been ruined. But thankfully, I didn’t lose him. The bus driver, on the other hand, what was his name again? Fuck. I didn’t even remember, I didn’t even know. He probably has a family, a wife, and kids waiting for him to come home. Which wasn’t gonna happen. I knew that because…
A sick feeling started to swell up my body, and my hands trembled.
“Fuck.” I swore, before I ran into the bathroom and started throwing up. I killed a man. I fucking killed a man. He doesn’t exist anymore because of me. His kids…His wife… shit. fuck. shit fuck. I have done the very thing I feared most to another family. But I had to do it, right? That bastard had to pay, for what he did to Tyler, I was… I was so pissed off. I looked at my own reflection in the bathroom mirror. Fuck. Why is my face wet? Am I… crying? What have I done? No. Screw this. I shouldn’t be crying over this shit. I did the right thing.
He got what he deserved, right?
Right?
Switched Pairing: DJ Ross//Jason Smokes
Written by: Howie
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